I suppose xiao pang is lost..
I cant find them and im worried for them..
stupid dogs like to wander here and there..
if they were my dogs Im sure I leashed them properly..
but they belong to the wild. I cant keep them.

life is so up and dwn.
its so down at some time and so up at some time..
Im really confused at some time..
please dn confuse me..
im scared....

+ Rach @ 4:47:00 PM

Im so lost.

So lost of what Im thinking.

I jus want to smile back my real self.

Its hard.

It seems that I cant break off from his shadow sometimes..

Im suffocating... I need to remind myself to breathe so that I can live on.

In the loving memory of my Cousin, Tan Chee.

You will always be missed.

National Day will not be the day of celebration to all those we knew you. But a day of remembrance, a day to be reminded of that life is precious. Because once in a while, humans need a breather. And once in a while, we need to be reminded of that families ties are important. Smile and laugh for what we are happy of and this is indeed what life is. Even when you are gone, your laughter will always be in my memory. Your family forgives you and what I hope is that you can also in a way gave them assurance somehow.. We will live stronger. Thank you for what you had given us these precious memories. Goodybye. We love you.

 

+ Rach @ 12:24:00 AM

its the end for our 64th month.
to correct it, it's 63mths.


Why he doesnt listen,
why he dn really bother?
after the last break up, I guess it's back to 'I take u for granted'
jus that he doesnt know.

He says 'let's nt meet and let us cool dwn.'
I say, 'my ass'

what i learnt is that love is nt money and two person thing.
it's abt the ones you are with and the happiness u shared with.
and that includes the ppl they are with too.

I guess, this is the end. no more him finally.
I wonder...
and wonder...

Is this thing as Mr Right anymore?
I noe there isnt 100% guy as JB thought me.
But i jus nid a guy who REALLy understand what his other half need and not want.
Money is nt everything.
jus like buying u stuffs doesnt meant i care for u.

I thank you for these 5 years and a half. known you for 6years but it turns out the apple had rot.

+ Rach @ 12:20:00 AM

hate life at times

life can be so up and dwn..

while working, i watched as de day goes by.. so carefree.. even though there is work, when is done, im like de free birds flying in de sky with them.. care free flying.. as if....

Being with him could be such pain.. he wouldnt let me go.. I looked at him in the eyes. I realised he depended on me for support for too much.. worst then the tower of pisa leaning so heavily likes it's going to fall...  Perhaps Im alrdy bored.. dn blame me for having 6 attached years and its de result.


Let me go please.. I dn deserve ur love anymore.

+ Rach @ 1:05:00 AM

After for so long, i feel like adding one piece of my thoughts here.

I guess I lost interest in writing for dis mth or so.. maybe because my close frens close their blogs and coming to blogspot is not an interest to me anymore.

I feel sad losing a fren. I thought he was really a gd fren. but jus one 'event' which he doesnt shows up and den he nv shows up. hopefully one day he will show up jus like dis yr he had after a 'war' with me. 'We are really not wat you think as materialistic'

Second, i felt like losing touch wif this world on and off. sometimes I can get real depressed dis yr. it hadnt hit me since 6 yrs ago. I was an emo shit. I noe. but nobody noes cause Im on and off.
Jus that i dn cut myself or anything. Hah.

I noe... Im a faggot. bye blog for another time being..

+ Rach @ 11:18:00 PM

Iam so thankful to these two weekends.
I have my friends and love ones with me.
Im Happy.

This week had been very busy.
sprained leg still havent recovered..
but i like to walk here and there..
so my leg can recover properly..
thanks to him and JB, they accompied me to de sinseh and i become officially 'Bai Ka'

really had a fantastic week. zann even stay over wif me..
everything was out of a sudden. first last min plan to chunk fest(stupid)
den, changi airport for breakfast, lunch, dinner.
den, tennis.
den, partyworld.
den zann slpover!!!

quite happening within one day, filled wif so many emotions dat day.

maybe i shall upload de pics in my nxt few post. blooger is having probs or else is my com having probs wif blogger.

miss ya ppl out there...

+ Rach @ 10:15:00 PM

Miserable Bitch.

You or I?
We or I?
Stare or slp?
Sad or Tears?
Wrong or Standstill?
Care or heckcare?
Sensitive or not?

Still or over?

+ Rach @ 12:10:00 AM